LABOR DAY FOR SURE

[barbaranoela]

If we have all said it once we have said twice-- --I hate this disease!!!!

I have been doing soooooooo great----and then as it usually goes ---the warnings start---sloshing from side to side---rumbleing---gurgleing--
*PHOOEY*-----and then that nauseated pukey feeling---

I said to Louie--I do believe that this relapse that I am into--is the after shock of his surgery----trust me peoples---when U hear your hub has 5 blocked arteries---and they are in awe as to the fact that he didnt drop dead in AZ.--and Barbara takes this news like a TROOPER---but from May to now reality sets in as to the seriousness of what could have happened~~~

Boy I really thought I had total control---

At this point I am now more of a nut case over this kidney STONE--
Go figure????

So I am taking a good guess and saying I AM stressed over this and I really dont believe I am ???

I am eating very carefully----

and I kinda blopped in bed all day---

Spoke with Debbie today and one of her closest friends is soon to pass on to a better place--She had all the treatment possible but
Five years ago her hubby died fom colon cancer and 3 months after that Cindy was diagnosed with bone cancer---she had her left leg amputated--but it had traveled to her hips and other leg---they wanted to amputate the other leg and Cindy said NO-WAY----if this is my time then I shall search my soul and leave for that better place---cus now it is all thru her body!!!
Deb is heart-broken but she hiked the mountain trails and when she reached the top and saw the blue skies she told me I will always see Cindy--she will always be in the skies for me to talk with---and thats what I do----as Lou and I are driving , and the skies are filled with puffy clouds,I look and watch--and then I see a formation that sorta looks like Robert telling me ,I am always with U Barbara~~~~

I never told this to anyone,not even Lou, but I wanted U all to know how I believe ---
And Deb is very much a believer as I am---

Hope your day was the best--
keep a smile
luv Barbara



If U dont think we werent

[annie oakley]

Hi Miss Bn.....You know it's not your fault you have this desease. And I can Identify with you...I don't have the D right now...but I have the Arthritis pain BIG TIME! Can hardly walk right now. I am sorry you are having such a hard time right now. It will get better, have faith. And it's ok to hate this desease. You are a pillar of strength for Mr Louie.... let him be one for you and if he won't I will. Love Oma

[barbaranoela]

Hi dear Oma----U always have the perfect thing to say----

But right now I am not such a strong pillar of strength for Lou---
He is supporting me MORE ----A reversal role

I know these things will pass---but its such a let down when U think U have conquered your fears but they are just a few feet behind U---

thanks Oma, luv Barbara

PS. the cases are used for SHOW----nobody dares sleeps on them

[tex]

Hi Mrs. Columbo,

I sure understand your feelings, 'cause I'm having that sloshy, rumbly, gurgly, nauseated feeling myself, today. Only I don't have any excuse for being this way.

You're right, of course--our fears are always just a few feet behind us, waiting for us to stumble, so they can overtake us, and overwhelm us while we're down.

The clouds do have mysterious healing powers, don't they. If it weren't for things like that, we would be lost, and our fears would always have the upper hand.

Luv,
Galahad

[Mars]

OH Barb, I am sorry you are having such a horrible time! I wish I could give you a big, big hug.

It is not your fault you have this disease and it is OK for Lou to play the caregiver to you for a few. Your time will come soon again. You are a team and teams work together. One will hold up the other when they need the extra hand (or two, or a leg, or ...... ). Are you laughing yet?

I understand the cloud thing. From the time Bryce was little, I would play the "cloud game" where he would tell me what he saw. It was relaxing and comforting to us both and we were sharing that special time between us.

Take care of yourself. You have a big family to wrap their arms around you!

Love and hugs to you from me -

[JJ]

Hugs to you Barb...sorry about the gurgly rumblys...I had horrible gas last night....I think I had a reaction to the tahini/shiritaki yam noodles I made for dinner. Now that I will be back at school, I will have to watch my stress level. I will be teaching 6 classes instead of the normal 5 and I will have Advanced Drawing students in the same class with the beginners! I am stressed already!

Seriously, take care of you.....we can't change the shape of clouds, but we sure have the ability to love the heck outta them when we feel up to it....nite nite...JJ

[MaggieRedwings]

Morning Lady B,

I think a few of us right now are having a "relapse" and it could just be the normal for us or the stress of the suffering in the South could also be helping it along - I know for me that is the case. It is not your fault and I am sure Louie is more than willing to be the caregiver for the time being.

I totally understand the clouds and see many things people would be surprised at in them.

Love you and please take it easy. Maggie

[starfire]

Barbara,
Ditto to all that has been said, but I wanted to add that I know from my own experience that a person can seem to hold up well during incredible stress, even repeated attacks of stress, then fall apart when the pressure is off. It really doesn't surprise me that you are having a "setback" right now. Ease yourself through it as best your can and you WILL come back!!

I believe that with all my heart, dear Lady.



Love, Shirley