I am in Petra

[harma]

and still in Petra. It is amazing, once I finally start doing what I really want to do (or better said where I want to be), live is getting so much easier. Again in Amman struggling for a whole year and not making any real progress, more anything I tried, ended up "dead". And here, only a week, and every day I meet new people.

I had a three day ticket for Petra and was planning on going today too. Since I got home the last time from Petra in a short cut on a horse (which leaded to a tea invitation of a one-man two-wives family), I thought well today I will walk to Petra, can't be far. Almost there, somebody with horse came behind me and offered me to do the rest of walk on the horse. So why not. And one thing lead to another, if I was interested instead of going to Petra to do one day horse riding. Some negotiating about the price and for the rest of the day I have been on a horse. I know horse riding, but haven't done it for 21 years. So yes I am dead now, everything hurts. But it was great to do. And this is how I like my life to be, that in morning when you leave, I plan on doing one thing and just end up doing something totally different.

It was with a local bedouin guy, afterwards we had dinner together and than things got really interested. It turns out that he is the ex-boyfriend of the friend in whose house I am staying now. So yes small world. And also he is married now to (another) Dutch woman. I am invited to their house tomorrow for tea. But it was especially interesting talking to him, since he is a local from this area to hear from him if it is possible for as a single Dutch lady to live here. Because I hear so many different stories.

And not always those stories match with my own impressions. And in the end, I do thrust the most my own gut feeling and impressions, and really it is so great to talk to someone (somebody from here, who,from my point of view really knows) and just confirms what I see and how I feel it. Even things that happened last year of a Dutch lady living hear and an idea/feeling I had about her. was right.

So yes, everyday more and more I get convinced this is the part of Jordan where I want to live. Funny thing is first I wanted to go home today, than tomorrow and now already it is Sunday. But since I can stay here for a whole month, I will go to Amman only for a couple of days, was my clothes and stuff and than return here. Just getting to know people and one or the other way, this has to lead to something, finding a job, finding a house, finding a business partner.

And as always, I just wished I would have come straight here and not spend a whole year in Amman. But of course that is always the issue with 'the knowledge of now..."

[brandy]

Hi Harma,

I love, love, love your posts! Your posts are a great travelog and so uplifting! I think to MC sufferers in the earlier stages your posts offer hope at the end of the tunnel. MC can be a very isolating disease in the earlier stages. Keep us posted......Brandy

[Lesley]

Harma,

From what you are writing it sounds like Petra is the place for you. I love the idea of your going back for a month to see if you can move things forward towards LIFE! Enjoy!

[barbaranoela]

wishing U good luck and happy dayz-----

keep us updated as U do things--

happy new year--
Barbara