When I was 16 or so I started getting sharp pains in my lower abdomen and went to the doctor. He asked about bowel habits etc (which even then were weird) and diagnosed me with IBS, told me to make lifestyle changes and that was it.
In the years since then, it's been really up and down. I can be fine for months on end then be quite ill for days, weeks or months. The usual factors such as diet, stress, alcohol etc have a big effect. I have tried to eliminate gluten and dairy from my diet with limited success as I just don't have the willpower!
Late last year I got really quite unwell though then the symptoms were primarily in my stomach. I vomited a lot, had constant nausea, loss of appetite etc. I was also constipated quite a lot.
Long story short I've had, in this order
* h.pylori diagnosed by stool test and treated with triple drug therapy
* endoscopy - negative
* ultrasound - also negative
* h.pylori still present, treated again with triple drug therapy. now confirmed as gone.
* colonoscopy which showed MC
My specialist advised me this week to try Loperamide to control the diarrhoea which has been really quite debilitating over the past few weeks. Weirdly, I've been quite prone to constipation in the past few years but since the last triple drug therapy about 2 months ago, have had diarrhoea every day.
To be honest, the diarrhoea wasn't even the worst thing, I'm used to it and have never had any accidents. It was the cramps that were really killing me. At points, I was waking up every night at 4 or 5am in agony which was eventually relieved by opening my bowels. Not what you need when you work full time and have 2 jobs! One time I was in so much pain and had such a bad attack, that on the way back from the toilet to my bed, I must have fallen or fainted and knocked myself out. I woke up on the floor with a very sore head and had 2 black eyes for a fortnight afterwards!
Anyway, the cramps are much better now thanks to my taking Mebeverine, Buscopan and Colpermin (all antispasmodics) every day. I've been cutting those down recently with success. I'm tired of taking 15 + tablets a day. But it still hurts when I need to poo and I have to go pretty much as soon as I have the urge.
I also have really bad heartburn / indigestion / reflux so take Lansoprazole daily. I had to do without for 2 weeks for the h.pylori breath test and make do with Ranitidine which was really tough.
I also have permanent allergies and take prescription antihistamines every day all year round otherwise I sneeze upwards of 30 times a day and my nose runs permanently. This is worse in summer but present in winter too. I've sneezed a lot ever since I can remember.
Naturally I've lost a lot of weight as food doesn't stay in my body for longer than a few hours and because I still have very little appetite. I've been making a conscious effort to eat 3 square meals a day but it's not easy when you just don't feel like it. It's sad really because I've always loved food and this has really taken all the joy out of eating for me. A couple of people have commented recently that I've lost too much weight now and though it was good to see my spare tyre go (!), I have lost a lot of muscle mass which is annoying because I love running and keep fit generally which is really hard now. My energy levels still aren't right either. I've been slowly returning to exercise and other activities but progress has been slow and I still don't feel like my old self.
So he gave me the diagnosis this week and advised me to take Loperamide (anti diarrhoea) to treat the symptoms. He said to try 1-2 a day and see how I get on and go back to see him in 6 weeks. I've always been very wary of taking drugs like that and also of laxatives believing that they unbalance your system. Certainly I was pretty unwell after the clear out I had to have for the colonoscopy and wont' be doing that again in a hurry! So in the past I've only ever taken Codeine to slow my bowels down a bit when I've absolutely needed to because I was going out or because if I did one more poo in a day I would cry!
So I took one Loperamide yesterday and I have to say things are better than they have been for a long time. It's 2pm and I've only been for a poo twice today! The pain was less and though I think I'm still a way away from normal bowel motions, it was a huge improvement. I'm going to experiment with the dosage, maybe taking 1 every other day. I hate being constipated more than anything else so don't want to go the other way.
I think there are a few reasons that I've had such a bad flare recently.
* Lots of stress over a long period of time, including a bereavement. These factors are all resolved now.
* Overuse of nsaids. As I said, I'm a runner so I'm always injured and used these a lot last year for that. I just use topical cream now when I have an injury. BUT I have very very very bad period pains and have to use nsaids then. Having played around with medicaiton for a while now, I've settled on Mefanemic Acid + Co-codamol which allows me to function, sleep, work etc. I think being on my period affects my bowels anyway and obviously all the painkillers don't help.
* h.pylori
* too much alcohol, gluten, dairy etc etc. I don't drink a lot, just socially but I know it doesn't help.
* i started smoking again. I know how bad this is and nothing you can say can make me feel any worse about it than i already do!
So there you go. There's my story. Sorry it's such a long one but it's good to finally get things off my chest after so long.
i'm worried about having to Loperamide forever but maybe this isn't rational. I have no issues taking antihistamines and antispasmodics for life so why should this be different?
Clearly I will avoid steroids like the plague unless I have another acute flare. I'm already at high risk of osteoperosis, don't want to make that worse.
I'm hoping that now I know what's wrong with me finally, any future flares will be better controlled.
I know everyone on this board is a huge fan of eliminating gluten from your diet but I know this isn't realistic for me so I'm not going to pretend it is. Dairy is easier as I don't like milk or cheese (!) but I'd still struggle to cut it out all together. Which maybe means I don't have the right to complain but I don't think there's any point in not being realistic. I spent so long last year and this living off chicken soup, toast and honey that I became really resentful of my diet being so restricted.
So there you go, that's me! Any thoughts, hints or tips gratefully received. I've been thinking about seeking some alternative therapies like acupuncture and/or CBT. What do we think of that?
Holly x

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