good morning everyone

[barbaranoela]

from what I understand--Kait and those who have medical issues are in what they call *condo* units---4 rooms with 2 students in a room and there is a senior ,in each *unit*,who are studing for the medical profession----so I guess U can say--like *guardians* for these kids--

Saturday---Kaits *senior* had a session with Kait and her roomate Ashley to go over SEIZURES and to Xplain to Ashley the who.whys.howcomes and etc. of seizures---
how wonderful----so now I understand how they take care of kids with medical issues--

other than that----my depression has increased--I really dont know why--we are 2 peoples walking here and there---and is there an answer to *WHY*---who knows???

why should I be *unhappy*? even my Dr. seems to be confused cus I was doing 100% of gleefulness---and eagerly looking foward to each day-i had minor bouts but I over came them----this one is just a lingering cloud~~~~
did anyone ever wonder to yourselves--*where do I belong--where do I fit in??

and to top it off----we are going on a cruise, Sept. 8th--with another couple--and I really dont wanna go---

its an awful thing to NOT know---

and this too shall pass

Oma---how is your sister doing?
And CAMARY---isnt it your friend that was diagnosed with cancer??? how is she---if I am correct in saying this~~~
BOB---is really a trouper---

luve to all----
barbara

[kate_ce1995]

Hi Barb,

I am so glad Kait is settling into college life and they have what sounds like a wonderful system in place for helping these kids. When does she start classes?

As for your depression...sometimes it just happens! And goodness knows you've been through the wringer over the last 4 years. Are you still going to yoga? When you get on that cruise, I recommend a nice massage (I'm sure they have a spa of some sort?) and some serious lounging and sleeping! No stress.

Katy

[CAMary]

Hi Barb-

I am sorry you are feeling depressed! At least you recognize things do not feel *right* and you are letting people know (like your Dr.). I hope you are feeling back to your usual self soon!

It sounds like Kait has a good setup for college - and I am glad she will be able to experience living on-campus! It is a great leap in independence to move from home and attend school.

I've been on a brief cruise only once, Barbara - but it was great fun! I went with 6 girlfriends the summer before I got married...you can go and relax and you will have a *wonderful* time. Go and do whatever makes you happy - gambling, eating @ the midnight buffet or even ...and I agree with Katy - get a massage

Barbara - thanks for asking about Cindy! Most recent update from my mom is that she was responding VERY well to chemo, and her tumors had shrunk so much, she was given a week off of her treatment earlier this month and she went on vacation with her husband and 2 toddlers up to Lake Tahoe. Obviously, it will be a difficult battle, but there is reason to be optimistic (somewhat) as she has responded so favorably to treatment! Keep on praying!

Lots of love,

Mary

[barbaranoela]

Hi Katy---Tomorrow starts Kait's first class----Mondays, will call it, her day *off*---she has no classes---so today she can kinda relax and take it all in--
Our local paper had pictures of the freshmans being inaugurated(which looked like fun) but naturally I didnt see Kait---
I figured even if I seen someone with a frizzed head of hair---here and there---I would know it be her~~~~~

I havent been to yoga---just do a few things @ home----Lou did go down to see Jo-Tee, to xplain why I hadnt been there ---(this was due to the temp. and the side effects) that kept me away----
And Jo-Tee---totally agreed that I should NOT over-Xert my body if I am not feeling well---

and yes---this is a hugh crusie ship--U name it--its there---and yes---even yoga--

but I think---rather i know---its going to be just me *cruising* along with the ship---

thanks Katy--

luve--Barbara

[barbaranoela]

Mary--I am so happy to hear about Cindy---I thought that was her name but wasnt too sure--
and how wonderful for them to get away----be together--laugh---hug and just BE!!!!

I think of Cindy often---and I hope she continues on that wellness road--
thanks for filling me in---~~~~~

and Mary----I know Lou is looking foward to the BlackJack tables--
I never had an outside patio,on a cruise ship, so I know I will luve to sit there---

luve Barbara

[JJ]

Hi Barbara...I hope your dark cloud passes soon. What an exciting time for Kait! Keep us posted! Take care kiddo....JJ

[Polly]

Love, peace, and namaste, dear friend,

Sispolly

[annie oakley]

Hi Barb....Sorry you are feeling so depressed. Have you seen a doctor for it yet?
As far as My sister goes, I don't know yet if she's been to the Throasic Surgon yet. She said she will call me but if I haven'y heasrd from her by Friday, I will call her.
Glad that Kait is settling in at school. It must be exciting for her. Love Oma

[Liz]

Hi Twinnie. Sorry that you are feeling so bad. The cruise will do you the world of good. Just getting away with no day to day worries is what you need. Where are you off to??. How long for?? Sounds wonderful.

Kait seems to have settled in Ok so you can just relax, think about you & Lou & enjoy yourself now. You will come home a new woman.

Love

Twinnie 2

[artteacher]

Hi Barb,
I've been there, you're not the only one. Have you tried just going to bed for a day? It sounds to me like you're right brain is trying to tell you to nest and you're fighting it. You know, just plugging away despite how you feel. I'm not a professional, so take it for what it's worth.

Love you, Marsha