Surgery again for Kait

[barbaranoela]

Riding high and then the engine dies and U fall right to the ground--

It has been 10 months ago that Kait had hernia surgery-----and 10 months of the incision opening/closing and then being Vaccumed OUT!!

Well it appears that they feel that part of the *meshing* had fallen off and is some where in the lower part of the tummy--thus casing all this freakin infection to continue--which is why the incision is NOT closing!!!!!!
and this is a GUESS on the part of the surgeon!!!

So tell U all what---I give up---this roller coaster(and Im not the one going thru the pain physically) but mentally- has gotten me to the point of ??? I dont even know *of* what--

Am I angry??
Am I saying--some peoples worse off--and @ this point I dont care!!
Am I saying--is this supposed to make me a stronger person--
Am I saying *how* brave Kait is--this I can say *yes*
Watching Kait --for the 20 years of her life--missing so much of it--brings me to
In believing there is strength--not anymore with me!!!

Louie went to give me positive side of things and *first time in my life --I got up--said *shut-up* and walked away--
Barbara

[JLH]

Barbara, I'm so sorry to hear that news. I know that it is so rough for you and I hate that you have to go through it all.

[jodibelle352]

My thoughts and prayers are with you Barb and Kait. Hopefully there is still a positive approach to correcting this situation for Kait. She's so young and needs to beable to start living her life. I don't feel that God allowed this to happen to Kait because that's not how He works. But the times today and possibly terrible mistake by her surgeion has caused this set back for her. My prayers are for God to guide her doctor's to a positive correction for Kait quickly.

Love and God Bless:
Jodi

We all at times strike out at the person closest to us during stressful times and I'm certain that's what happened with you with your remarks towards one of the people you love most. That's why we have that special someone who puts up with our uncontrollable burst of anger and discouragement.

[sunny]

Maybe it's a good thing that you give up, Barbara....we aren't wired to continue on such an emotional roller coaster watching things happen that we can't control but want to....that kind of stress works havoc in our bodies ..... kait needs you ....not to fight her battles for her, perhaps, but to be the trustworthy gramma who loves her enough to hear things that she won't/can't tell others and offers her hugs and a shoulder to cry on. I am praying that all this stress won't impact you toooo much so you can be there for her ... for a very loooong time!!! So glad you have us as a sounding board and to help you carry this terrible burden.

[starfire]

Barbara,
I think Sunny said it very well.
I can't imagine the stress that your body must cope with. Emotional roller coasters are horrible rides.

Love, Shirley

[MaggieRedwings]

Morning Barbara,

Sunny definitely hit the nail on the head. I am hoping, again, that this is the last one for Kait in a long line of what seems endless trials and surgeries. I pray everyday for her and all of you and won't stop.

Love, Maggie

[tex]

Barbara,

This is a real bummer, obviously, but Kait has to have the surgery - she surely can't go on forever the way she is, with constantly recurring infections, and a vacuum line poking into a gaping wound in her belly. The sooner it's corrected, the better off she'll be.

Remember, in Kait's mind, it's just one more procedure. As many as she's been through, I seriously doubt that she would have any second thoughts about it. She probably just wants to get it done, so that she can get on with her "new" life. She needs your support, and your love.

Luve,
Galahad

[JJ]

Barbara.....this hug's for you!

Love, JJ