Hi Brenda,
When we develop a disease such as MC, something inside of us dies. We realize that many of the things that we took for granted in our previous life, things that we enjoyed so much, are now gone forever, and we will be forced to learn to get by without them. Because of that, we tend to go through the same pattern of grief outlined by the Kübler-Ross model, which describes, in five discrete stages, the process by which people deal with grief and tragedy. (You're probably familiar with this, since it was introduced in a 1969 book titled "On Death and Dying", by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross.) The stages, of course, are known as the "Five Stages of Grief":
1. Denial: "This can't be happening."
2. Anger: "Why me? It's not fair!"
3. Bargaining: "Just let me get better so that I can get out of the house, again."
4. Depression: "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"
5. Acceptance: "I can't fight it, so I may as well learn to live with it."
I think that in our special case, we also go through another stage - namely:
6. Enlightenment: "I may not be able to cure it, but I can certainly learn to control it, and by doing that, I can get my life back."
You seem to be at the second stage at this point, and I can assure you that we all go through every stage, before we get to the final one. Hopefully, being aware of this pattern may allow you to bypass, or at least minimize some of the misery along the way, and make the trip faster.
You can find a lot of helpful information about the diet in this forum, such as links to lists of restaurants with gluten-free menus:
http://www.perskyfarms.com/phpBB2/viewforum.php?f=6
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