Today is a good day.

[Bifcus16]

Yesterday was a bad day. Starting with some cross words with DH - he was upset because the planning people have decided to disallow our water tank location they had previously approved (I don't know how they can get away with that!), and the tank supplier can no longer supply the one we ordered anyway, but can credit it against a different one.

Then at work they started 'tapping people on the shoulder' to tell them they are 'not considered to have the qualities required to move the organisation into the future' and giving them two weeks to decide between some unpalatable options. This had targeted people at the level above me the day before (but quietly, so few knew about it), and yesterday they targetted my level. I spent a lot of time with a colleague who is affected, and a lot more time trying not to panic - and to find out what was going on. People were just being called into meeting rooms with an hour or so notice, so every time I walked back to my desk I would look anxiously at the phone in case I had been called up. Obviously trying to find out from colleagues what was happening, how many and who was affected, and all of us worrying if we would be next.

Is it any wonder that late in the afternoon I ended up having a bathroom accident at work? Which of course just added to the stress. I had to ring DH to get him to take me home - luckily it was late enough to leave anyway.

Then when we got home we had an email from the bank saying that the house renovation contract we had signed was the wrong sort and they wouldn't lend against it. This is after they had the contract for two weeks and told us it was OK to sign.

So, I don't know if I still have a job, I have a contract with a builder for a scary amount of money, and no finance to cover it. And the removalists coming this morning to put stuff into storage for the reno. Do you think that might be why I had bad D?

DH works with some people who used to work with me, and they had found out that all those affected were supposed to be told by 4pm yesterday. They also assured him I had proved myself too useful to go. So hopefully I am safe. But still nervous.

I had way way too much white wine (to treat the headache), and didn't sleep well.

But, this morning went better. The removalist process went smoothly and the storage space we had organised was big enough- just. The bank lady found the right page on the contract so it all wasn't a problem any more. And I still haven't had a phone call from work -though being off today means it might still happen tomorrow. And I haven't had any accidents today.

Now here is the interesting thing. Last night when I was feeling really bad it helped just to know that you guys are here, and would be willing to offer an ear and sympathy. And that there was somewhere I could admit to being scared enough to poop myself.

So feel proud of the community you have created, because it is a powerful thing.

Thanks for being here, gang.

Lyn

[Dee]

Hi Lyn...
Yes, we are here and have a purpose.
Have to admit while reading your post I was all teary eyed....
I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers that you will not be affected by the cuts at your work place.
My husband is retired, but due to the economy and his joke of a retirement check, he has had to pick up a job to supplement, just so we can get by.
I have taught myself to take one day at a time, because that's all any of us can do.


Love
Dee~~~~~~

[tex]

Lyn,

Wow! That was like a bad dream. I have to admit that your post had the same effect on me, as it did on Dee. I'm so glad to hear that most of the issues have been resolved, and you're feeling better. It's interesting that most of the problems were due to someone else's failure to honor their obligations, or failure to do their job correctly. Do contracts mean nothing, anymore?

I've often wondered why so many bad things often happen at the same time, because that seems to be some sort of a fairly common occurrence. I've also wondered if it might be better that way, so that most of the stress is centered on a day or two, rather than it being drawn out, resulting in something bad happening virtually every day, with the stress level remaining high, day after day. I suppose that's a moot point, though, since we don't normally have much choice about when bad events occur.

Anyway, I'm sorry that you had such a bad day, and I'm glad that things are looking better. Thank you for being a member of our family, and for recognizing what it means to all of us.



Tex

[barbaranoela]

Lyn---so sorry for that bad day---things do get better---and we are always here to listen---- thats what friends are for--in good times--in bad times

As DEE said---I am STARTING to learn to take one day at a time---and darn if it doesnt feel GOOD~~~~ Yesterday is gone----today is just beginning and tomorrow will be tomorrow~~~



Barbara

[Gloria]

What a complete turnaround in events! When I read the first part of your post, I was holding my breath, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Thank goodness things changed for the positive.

It had to be hard to watch your colleagues get their notices and wonder if you were next. I'm keeping my that nothing else happens to you.

This group really does help us get through the stresses of life. As Barbara says, that's what friends are for.

Gloria

[starfire]

I can just imagine how you must have felt. Like getting hit in the head with a hammer over and over again. I'm glad things started to work out also and I hope it is continuing.



Love, Shirley

[Bifcus16]

Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts. I really really do appreciate it. One day at a time is doing well some days.

Yes, thing are continuing to look up. Work has confirmed that they have spoken to everyone they are intending to, except a few they can't contact.

One of my close colleagues and friends was on leave this week, and was called in to get the bad news. I have chatted online with his wife (who also works here) this morning. He is upset at how it happened, but as I thought, it could work out well for him as he was ready to retire anyway. What makes it a tad awkward is this morning I was offered his job (as well as my current one) until things settle down - so I had to tell his wife that before anyone else did. He knows I have always wanted his job, so I am happy at the same time as I am sad. And one of his team members saw me in the corridor and asked if I would be willing to come and run their team - so I won't face resistance there. Anyway, I am supposed to be meeting these friends for coffee shortly, so that is good.

I also saw the new doctor today, and she seemed good! She knew about LC!
She organised blood tests for things like CRP and B12 levels (that is sensible), decided it was long enough since my last colonoscopy that I should have another one and has referred me to a GI. She also understood my concerns that the tiny amount of lactose in my HRT could be the problem, and prescribed some patches instead. So here's hoping.
Oddly enough my blood pressure was up- but since it is usually low, high only hit 130.

And I haven't had D this morning (nor a normal, so I think it's just waiting).

Needless to say I am still not relaxed. I keep talking to people at work, and finding out about more people who have gone. But I am also finding a few rumours were wrong, and that is good.

Maybe Tex is right and it is good to get the bad over with. But boy oh boy, I don't need any more days like that one. Ever.

Lyn

[MaggieRedwings]

Hi Lyn,

I am glad things are looking more sunny for you. The shoulder tapping seems to be running rampid right now and have known a few people in the same situation. Hopefully, all is over and things will be positive from here on. To be asked to join the new team is a definite positive.

Love, Maggie