This Posr Makes It Real...

[jodibelle352]

Only 2 others (that I know of) know what I am about to share now with all of you. By posting it makes everything I've been dealing with very REAL. Facing the fact that at some time in the near future I will be loosing the 'love of my life' and 'soul mate' of 37 years is the one thing I have been putting off for several months now.

The family I have here are my life line. I know in my heart that many of you have not understood why I've not been on much and if I may have forgotten you. My extended family I want you to know that those thoughts are so very far from the truth. Once I found the family here each and everyone of you have become a very important part of me. It doesn't seem possible that in June I will be celebrating the anniversary of being a part of this family for 2 years. With your love, comfort & support I've truly grown with acceptance of my disease as well as become capable to make great strides in my emotional and mental wellbeing.

Now I'm asking for your prayers. My husband; David is very ill. A month ago we made the decission to allow Heartland Hospice to come in as we truly needed help with his medical issues. For 15 years I've done the very best I could possibly do and have prided myself in keeping him out of the hospital and at home. It has become very clear that each seasons change have become very difficult for him to adapt. He is on oxygen 24/7 and my 95lbs. weight issue makes it almost impossible for me to do what I've done for years.

Posting this is so very difficult for me because it's an admission to myself and to others that it's just a matter of time. I want each and everyone of you that because of you I'm stronger emotionally then I was 2 years ago and I owe it all to the love and support I've received from you. Please be patient with me when my absense seems too long, it's not intentional but sometimes I'm just unable to be on the boards when my total focus needs to be on David.

It is 5:00a.m. here in Michigan and tired doesn't even discribe what I am right now but David is having another of several downward spirals. I've contacted Heartland and am waiting for the arrival of a nurse to check David once again. Sometimes in life we all have to do what has to be done and I do my best to rest/sleep when I can and give him the care he desperately needs during my awake hours.

I love all of you and now that I have informed you I want you to know that it has helped me knowing that now I'm able to share with my extended family here when things get tough.

Love and God's Blessings To Each of You!
Jodi

[starfire]

Jodi,

I know you are going through probably the most painful experience you will ever have and I'm so very sorry that it is happening to both you and your husband.

I know you will come through it but the road is very hard. Hold fast to your faith, Jodi. I know it took a lot of courage just to post. So much easier to pretend nothing is going on.

I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers. Please post when you are able.

Love, Shirley

[mbeezie]

Jodi,

My heart goes out to you during this difficult time. We're here when you need us.

Love,

Mary Beth

[MaggieRedwings]

Dear Jodie,

You and David are in my prayers and please know that you are doing the best you can and accept any and all help that is beneficial when you need it. It is such a hard time for you but your family here is for you.

Love, Maggie

[harma]

Hello Jody, thank you for posting it here and sharing your most difficult feeling at this time of your life. I am so so sorry, you are going to loose somebody you love so much. My heart goes out to you and your husband David, I hope god will give you both the strength to coop with this.

love

harma

[wonderwoman]

Jodi, It must be difficult caring for someone for so long. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

One is never given more than they can bear.

Hang in there.

[tex]

Jodi,

I'm sorry that this is happening, but I'm so glad to see that you are finding the strength to be able to deal with such a difficult time in life. You and David are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Tex

[barbaranoela]

Jodi----my prayers are with U and David---
I wish I could be there just to hug U --

Much luve---
Barbara and Lou

[JLH]

Dear Jodi,

I am glad you are at the point where you are able to share with all of us. I can only imagine how very difficult this must be.

I hope your faith, family, friends and as I said in my email, the angels on earth, hospice people, can help you through this.

Love,
Joan

[ant]

Dear Jodi

You have great strength and bravery to write what you did. All bodies are weak, but true love last for ever. Every time it is expressed it is timeless, like our spirit. I pray for you and David.

Love, Ant

[Gloria]

Jodi,

I'm so sorry that you are going through this difficult time. I pray you will have the physical and emotional strength to cope. Your love for David has always been heartwarming. My prayers are with you both.

Gloria

[Stanz]

Jodi,

I can only echo what others have said. I cannot imagine what this must be like. Thank you for sharing.

Connie

[Gabes-Apg]

Jodi
how brave and couragous of you to express your most inner thoughts and emotions

i feel honoured that you trust us with those.

no words can explain how hard it is to watch a loved one and especially your soul mate be in this condition.
i spent 3 years watching my dad die of cancer. not quite the same but i do feel some of what you are feeling

all my love and support (even if it is from afar)

[Delta]

My thoughts and prayers are with you in this most difficult time.

[Olivia-Micro-Colitis]

my heart goes out to you and David and you both will be in my prayers!
-Olivia