Visit the Microscopic Colitis Foundation Website
I like to take time now and again to reflect, remember and remind myself how different things are today from yesterday.
As many on these boards are very much aware I was NOT in a very good mind set when I first stumbled across this site. And there was NOTHING moderate about my weight loss.
It's now time to PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm happy to inform everyone that I now weigh 102 lbs and am now wearing a size 4. Before anyone decides to scratch my eyes out I want to make it very clear that at the onset of having CC my weight loss was far from being MODERATE it was very SEVERE and next to being very scarry. At my lowest I am certain that I was near 85lbs because I know longer recognized myself in the mirror. I was having D 15-20 times each day and I was always in pain so I had convinced myself not to eat at all or at least eating only enough to curb the hunger pangs I would have. Damn I was hungery but so very afraid to eat. So that's the frame of mind I had put myself in.
With all the different diseases discussed on this board each and every single one of them has D and DEPRESSION in common. The combination of these 2 together can really turn a person's world inside out and up side down.
It's hard for me to believe that I've been with all of you for 9 months now and it feels like only a few days ago that I made my first post on these boards. I have truly been blessed.
For the Newbies on this board believe me when I say "There is NOTHING BETTER than the support of those you will find on this board. I have shared my daily fears with D and continuous pain as well as sharing the progress I have made once the right medication for me was found. (Entocort) Without the SUPPORT of my family here I truly feel that ALL the medication in the world would not have had any effect what so ever because my mental health needed to love, kindness and support ONLY this board can give. I have come to believe that the people on this site has become just as valuable to me as the support an alcoholic receives each and everytime he/she goes to an AA meeting.
The diseases we all share is LIFE ALTERING and how we accept and embrace these changes in our lives will truly show us in the long run how we are going to learn to LIVE with these diseases. Through medications, diets, changes in our life styles and support each and everyone us will come to learn to LIVE with our disease.
Today I just wanted to take the time to say "Thank You" and "I Love You" for all your love, support and understanding" Without it I would have only David to celebrate the fact that I am now wearing a size 4 because the size 2's are to TIGHT on me.
There is absolutely NOTHING I haven't shared with anyone on this board and I would trust each and everyone with anything close to my heart. You all have been such a blessing and a very important part of mylife.
Do I still have bad days. You bet your sweet azz I do! Because sometimes I eat something I'm unsure of when I'm out in public that I'm unfamiliar with but I can assure you that the bad days grow fewer and fewer as I progress. In June of 2008 if anyone had told me "things will get better" I would have called them a liar and crawled back into bed waiting for the next bought of D to take hold of my life.
For those who are unsure of changing their diets without permission from their doctor's then I'm telling you DON'T TELL YOUR DOCTOR!!!! Take the medications prescribed such as entocort, asocol etc but truly watch what you're eating and do the best you can to omit as much gluetin as possible. If you happen to also have diverticulousis for Pete's sake stay away from eating anything with seeds like stawberries, cukes, tomatoes etc. But even if you try and take the advise from other members if it doesn't work for you and you do have problems KEEP A JOURNAL and don't eat that particular food. I have just found that I CAN eat Romain Lettuce without and adverse problems but God help me if I eat any other lettuce. I've not tried acid free tomatoes because as of yet I have not found any close by but I'm still looking for them.
Enough about rattling on and on. May each and everyone of you know that "I love you very much" and "thank you" from the bottom of my heart for everything you have given so freely with love to me the past 9 months.
Love and God Bless:
Jodi
